It has been a busy, challenging, exciting and slightly confusing last couple of months. I often jot down blog post ideas as they come to me, but I have been experiencing a strange sense of guilt when I actually think to sit down and write a post. I need to get over that. Last night helped me do just that.
First, let me explain this guilt thing as best I can because I’m sure it sounds strange…
Ever since discovering and slowly realizing (I was in denial for a while) that I would not in fact get the dream job I had been pursuing for over a year, I have been on a mission to find a new one. This has proven to be seemingly impossible. Countless hours on Craigslist, LinkedIn, company websites, late nights writing cover letter after cover letter, filling out applications and reaching out via several networks became the daily routine. After every cover letter written, I was filled with a confidence and certainty that I would get an interview. Much to my surprise, many of these companies that I spent time researching and often growing attached to, envisioning my new role/career with them, wouldn’t even acknowledge my existence with a “thank you for your interest” email. To find the perseverance within to continue to the next position and/or company I’d inevitably fall in love with at the risk of utter defeat, is something I have learned to do, but this doesn’t mean it gets any less difficult. I’m exhausted. Read the rest of this entry →